Wow.. seriously a very dead blog.. and i knw no one would knw if i updated this. LOLS~!
And if a miracle would be that someone actually read this den gd for u.. @.@

And my habit of writing my most deepest thoughts cn never be changed. only 1 person in this world knws tt actually.. i wonder if she still remembers.. hmm.. lols..
either way, random rambling jus makes me feel better sometimes.. even if she read this she also wont reply.. ._. reply also i wont feel anything. a feeling long dead. but i still wish for her happiness. Afterall, i never loved anyone more strongly den i loved her. and it took me so long to finally stopped loving her as a gal and start liking her as a sister.

I'm happy that the feeling died. Cus i cn finally move on in one sense. In another sense, i dunno hw to feel again.. its like so long since i last fell. sometimes i would feel despo nn try to jio a gal, but tt feeling doesnt feel as gd as those feelings from long ago..

Talking abt long ago, i felt that tt episode in my life wif her was like my life's greatest drama. A story i would look back in time and reminisce. Sadness happiness frustrations and joy.
Like a drama series in a whole year.

Enuf abt de past le.. de more i think de more i feel i cnt move on properly, esp with wat happen wif my family nn stuff.

What i originally wanted to write here is that i finally feel that i have fallen i love once again..
At 1st, i had tot that with my fascination with all things 2d had finally made me a real otaku incapable of loving a real person again. but instead of that, i had alrdy fell in love with someone for quite sometime, is that becus i am afraid of loving her in fear of ruining our friendship that i totally push it away and claim it was jus a feeling of me feeling despo and wanting to jus get someone. After awhile i realised that that should be de least of my problems, for if she feels it would affect our frenship den i'll jus have to repair that frenship..

I dun rmb myself to be someone so weak as to worry abt something so minuscule. i had daringly tried to get someone to be mine even thou she was attached. I may sound like a bastard but i felt at that point of time that i was a better man for her. someone to have given her wat she wanted. If i was that strong before then i should jus be even stronger that i was last time.. Afterall i wants to carry all her burden, be there to catch each tear, make a shooting star if she wanted a wish, or make that wish come true myself. I dun have to be her source of all her happiness, but i would want to be the person hu she could trust her worries too.. So i have a new conviction to try and woe her and not being a coward anymore..

Finally, i have revived and found my old self. The one that has gone thru a tornado and hurricane coming out smiling. This is my frenzy i will not allow even god to stand in my way for my happiness.. I will attain my own happiness selfishly.

A feeling that i had thought i lost in my past. But it was always der.. I jus nvr noticed it. But now another story shall be woven out of the fantasy i call my life.

KORE DE ORE NO KYOURAN DA~!

Ok... reason for not blogging much.
i'm like de so into reading other ppl blog tt i forgot all about mine.

examples are.. : Famous Japanese blogger Danny choo. ok.. so he's an England born guy tt move the jp to fufil his otaku dreams and now has become one verys successful man with tons of anime product sponsers and tons of other great thing.. ii ne.~

den der is de MMK cafe gals from AFA blogs. Miyake, Tomomi and Yoshimi.
tgt with nakagawa shoko and well... i think i shud stop..==

yupp.. my otaku-ness has gone full scale as i get expose to more events and people.
working at otaku hse has rly bring me up to clue wat otakus rly do with life.
since de only otaku fren i have is wl..==

otaku need otakus. we will save the world LOL~!
i'll be adding their links to de blog so tt u all cn take a look..

*ehs wl. they may look like normal ppl in their maid outfit. BUT HOLY CRAP THEY DAM CHIO BODOH~!

^Otakus will save the world. (Danny choo)

RwaR~! dead blog need some reviving~!
nn i realised tt triple baka from my music player got killed..==
i wonder y~
ohwell~ fate tells me lucky star i must watch again~
so HERE I COME KONATA CHAN~!

nn i think de whole player is spoiled..==
jap song + English based player = no link..==
ahh crap~

Ohya. for those hu dunno~
i started working for otaku hse.=D
nn the contract says i cnt post anything abt my work experience online or offline..==
wat a bummer..==

outing to cele boon n venkat bday on friday~
rly sad tt py cmi.. omg wats wrong with my planning..== i sux.~

poor wcw in hk nw. i wish i was der.~ i wanna go outta town~
and dear fel came back from jp.~ i RLY wish i was der too..~ 8cm takoyaki goodness~
dung chan in VN and HZN tml leaving for CN.==
all going outta town~
and i here watch anime~
finally gt time to catch up siia~
PENGUIN GAL GOGOGO~!
nn knk7 greatness~~~
I knw you could do it shiki~
u could be moe too if u jus try~
SHIKI KAWAII to KOWAII DESU~!
XDXDXDXD~!

*yupp.. i'm mad. too much anime watch in a short times makes ur head forget at reality. now wheres tt screw driver... >.><.<~~

^I'll bear the burden of your sins. (KNK 7 - Mikiya to shiki. too bad he lost his eye.. nw shiki, tts how u kill a person. slice to body in half nn dun look back to aft cutting all his "death". Beautifully done, but dam gory. Kill like u r dancing.=D)

ps. i killed de player.==
will find a BETTER LOOKING BETTER WORKING player at some jp site.
nw where was tt song list i threw on my table.........

Ok. i have to say this 1st.
I AM NOT UPLOADING DE COSPLAY PICS~!
TOO MANY ALRDY~!
and i cant make up my mind which is nice.
cuz some are nice and some are funny but still over 300 pics...==
so...
sry to disappoint.
anyone interested cn get the pics from me=D

*Shocked. SO MANY? Maybe i went wild and snapped like mad..==

^Mouu.. dekinai dakara. (ok.. i knw i heard this from somewhere... nw where was it..==)

Well. Mr. DUNG-san made a very nice note in fb de other day.
I am in de mood of writing something too so maybe i'll try SOMETHING.

" Life roads are always filled with crossroads and split ways. What makes life interesting is the choices you make and the things you see along the way. I have not been choosing the routes of my life like a normal person, only going to those path which seemed easy and safe, usually stopping at important decisions and escaping to my fantasies. Not anymore. From now onwards, i have decided what to do with my life. From now onwards, my fantasies are no more then just a place to lay back and relax after working the entire day. Finally, after 19 years of my life, i finally found what i really wanted to do in life. "

WOW.~! ok.. seemed short compared to Dung's siia..==
while dung talked abt frens, i talk abt my own life..==

ok. another short quote.

" I have no idea. No idea that your eyes are the peeks into heaven. No idea that your smile is the brilliance of the stars. No idea that your touch is the softness of clouds. No idea that your heart is the warmth of my life. "

ok.. seems like i'm getting mushy..
has anyone seen a quote like this b4? if nt maybe i'll copyright it. seems nice.=D

I feel another one coming.~

" You are a great person. So great that no one can appreciate it. They take advantage of you. But because you are forgiving, you bear no grudge. Others call you naive or a pushover. But actually, they cannot understand why you are the way you are. You forgive those that hurts you and put the blame on yourself. Its not your fault. So get up, great person. Stand tall and walk with dignity. One day, someone will appreciate your greatness. You are a great person. Remember that. "

Inspired by recent events.
And thus this little quote.
maybe i shud copyrite this too.

Well. off to todays actual post.
SUPeR BUSY DAY LA TODAY~!
Like fly around de while of sg.
maybe i shud grow wings.
anyone got seeds for angelic wings lvl 1?=D
well. main part.

DINNER WITH EX-REALGAMERS FREN~!~!XDXD (aka. anti-mike gathering.)
LOL~! its like. we havent see each other for a YR~!
but still everyone is the same o ppl.
EXCEPT KATHERINE~! SHE CHANGED SO MUCH~!
almost couldnt recog her la..
hope she doesnt read this n kill me.=XD
Dinner and pool.
Well cuz of my terrible memory i cnt rly rmb anything fun abt it. jus VERY normal.
Well. FINALLY SOMETHING NORMAL IN MY LIFE~!
Pool and i kanna trash by royston.
sianz.
if i had more money we could have k-ed..==

people change. but nt their soul.
but i wonder what happened to you. hmm..

* Your silence was eerie. I wonder what happen to your usual self? or was something wrong?

^Sohara. I hate you. ._. (Sora no otoshimono.)

I've got a confession to make.

I wanna be like danny choo.
and be the SG ____ _____.
well.. i cnt be dance trooper rite?
hahas.

SUGGESTIONS AND U MIGHT SEE ME ST PERFORM~! MUAHAHAHA~!

*Its like one dream to another. i cn nvr make up my minds.=D

^TURN ME BACK, KONATA~! (Kagami.=D)

crap i'm so busy i cant even post cosplay pics.

little update 1st. maybe tml gt time.

thurs.= steamboat =D fun fun fun.=D dancing prawnies.=D hahaha=D
n nice chat aft tt..
lols.
best times - defintely.

today. WORK @ OTAKU HSE~!
normal. normal.
althou everyone wans to beat me @ my anime watch list.
yes. i watch alot of anime. dun try n beat me unless u gt no life like me..=.=

*Nitemares tt came to huant me. An angel tt saved me. But tt angel is so.. unexpected..?

^AI MAI 3 SENCHI~! (Lucky star - Motteke! Sailor fukku.~!)